really. i always have a little bit of paranoia lounging around in my brain. ok; its more like constant worrying...but most minutes of the day its muted (a bit-ok!). last night i was tired...but for whatever reason i had these thoughts in my head that i wasn't going to wake up. i was literally scaring myself into not going to sleep for fear that i wouldn't wake up. (now...i must admit if i was going to choose my own destiny then it would be this. but not today and not tomorrow....some 60ish years from now sounds great, thanks!) but who gets to pick that? not me, not you...only the big guy upstairs decides all that.
eventually my eyes closed and i made my way into sleepytime and here i am. alive and well for the time being. i think that's the key...the unknown is just that.
i just have to be thankful that i woke up today and remember that life is short and we all have our own destiny.
"a ship in port is safe, but that's not what ships are built for."
~grace murray hopper
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